It is Saturday Morning April 4, 2009. Here in Russia the Overseer of our home churches (a subordinate to the "California Workers") says I can not speak
in Meeting (even in my own home!) because I was married before. With 2x2 missionaries present I talk after meeting,
After meeting my wife had gone to prepare dinner. I was talking to the 2x2 Sister Workers (missionaries) about interviewing Frank Odle. I believe that
interviewing Frank was a Spiritual Healing for his experience in caring for those they liberated in Buchenwalt. I believe hearing Frank was like a testimony that invited the Spirit
of Truth to hear and heal his experience of suffering (suffering in a world that only wants to hear smooth things - Isaiah 30:10).
Two things have encouraged and helped me to heal:
1) A letter to Hewey my ex-student, friend and fellow servant of Christ Jesus. Hewey and his wife are in the process of adopting and have had painful setbacks.
2) The writing of Koenraad Elst on confronting Denial and Negationism http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negationism_in_India_-_Concealing_the_Record_of_Islam from other sources I was surprised to learn the Roma (Gypsies) were from India escaping Islam nearly 1000 years ago!
PS: It is Sunday evening a week later. We had a nice meeting with one of the sisters expressing pain for loss in our family in Jesus. As usual Olga had a nice
dinner prepared. They stayed and we had pleasant conversation.
I just hope that sharing these experience is helpful, validating and encouraging to some as we seek to serve God with our brief gift of life in Him.
The good news here is that I started my English teaching classes in the Children's Library today. Again, I teach by reading from the parallel English/Russian bible. You may view
me in a library video on youtube at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8JRqtN414ow
I've been meaning to write you with thoughts about the love you have prepared for a child or children. Please keep me in communications as a friend that cares.
I believe it is safe to say that in love a parent always wants a high potential possible outcome. In my experience that means there will often be a painful gap between what
could have been and what is.
It has been my experience that:
1) to have a friend that I can talk with openly and honestly without them confusing the discussion with their hang-ups is a wonderful gift.
2) that all people to one degree or another have areas where they can not hear without projecting their hang-ups into the discussion and color what is being said.
3) I have been blessed with a set of friends that I knew what issues I could talk about. Unfortunately I have lost many of my good people by death and by location. Now Sasha my
only close English speaking friend here in Russia has moved to a different city.
There are two topics I would like to share with you as background:
Hewey, do you remember the big flap over the Pope reinstating a Bishop that denied the Holocaust? I saw a CBS interview on youtube where the Bishop expressed his denial. (I think you can find it on Youtube at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=11B6qDv8Fns). The Bishop has since been deported back to England
I may have told you before and don't remember that one of my step-father's elderly friends went into Buchenwald
Concentration Camp (Germany) on the day of liberation. He was an administrative first sergeant in an Army unit of 8 member surgical teams. He showed me personal
photos and told me his story.
I decided to interview him as I understand that type of debriefing is healing to the spirit (outlook). The interview is in 10 short parts that may be found on youtube searching
" 1945 Buchenwald Witness (Part 1 of 10)".
Denial is interesting and I don't understand how to deal with it. I can talk about the threat of Islam and lose communications with many friends and relatives. The same is true of
the cause of autism and the same is true to talk about the millions murdered by the Russian government.
Hewey to me the Spirit of Truth is a healing Spirit that is apposed to denial. Again according to Bettelheim's research, the survivors
of the holocaust that were most successful at living and loving were those who talked about it till they were bored!
Your insights are wonderful here. Everyone does have hangups, so probably everyone has some subject(s) they can not listen to another talk about without projecting their own
life and pain into. Having friends you can talk to is a great blessing.
I am at work and You-tube is blocked from the Givaudan network so I will have to listen to the postings you reference later.
Monday April 6 Lisa and I drive to New Port Richie, Florida to attend staffing meetings on two different sets of
siblings. One set is a group of 6, 9, and 11 year old boys. The other is a 6 year old boy, a 9 year old girl and a 15 year old girl. This will be our
first opportunity to see their case files and learn some of the details and problems we will have with them. Both sets scare me. I am more scared of trying to raise a
boy than a girl. Always my own lack of training in life skills makes me feel inadequate. But if I look at the inadequacies around me, well perhaps I can do as well or better